Unbearable Agony: A Personal Struggle Against the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome
It began on a dreary weekday morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a teacher, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a sharp sensation erupted behind my one eye. Then came rapid shocks, similar to electric shocks. As each class came and went, the discomfort eased and then came back with increased force. Multiple times that day I handed over a colleague with worksheets and hurried to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I took ibuprofen, but the pain remained unbearable.
The headaches appeared repeatedly that autumn, and once more in the spring, soon establishing an yearly pattern. September and October were the most severe, then February and March. I could anticipate the pattern: a warning sensation in the shower, early pangs on the train, full-on agony in class by mid-morning. In late 2019, a doctor finally sent me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.
Cluster headaches typically begin with severe discomfort behind one eye that persists up to several hours.
About 1 in 1000 people are affected by the condition, and men are more often diagnosed. Cluster headaches typically start with abrupt, excruciating pain focused on one eye that reaches its peak within minutes and lasts for up to three hours. Episodes come in clusters, every day or multiple times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or facial perspiration. There exists the episodic form, which arrives in seasonal bouts; others have continuous attacks, defined by the absence of extended symptom-free periods.
What unites patients is the intensity. One research paper rated the pain at 9.7 10, higher than bone fractures or other conditions. A separate found 64% of cluster patients reported suicidal thoughts during bouts; the number fell to 4% when they were not in pain.
One patient, in her seventies, a chronic sufferer from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her episodes began when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the floor and hit my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through her youth. Drinking in her teens, similar to several triggers, made things worse. After drinking alcohol at her school leaving party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the bus home.
Her family often interpreted her episodes as drunken behavior. Understanding eventually came from her parent and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after moving, but often hid her condition. She was fired from one job, partly due to time off during episodes. Her definitive identification came in the early 2000s at a specialist hospital.
Still, the failure to organize daily activities around unpredictable pain took its toll. She particularly disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her children during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the simple freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.
Headaches have been described across the ages. “The first account of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write experts in a publication on the topic. They linked the ailment to an evil spirit who attacked his victims' heads.
Historical medical texts propose unusual remedies for what some experts would describe as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, severe headache was recognised as a separate condition, with therapies including herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious remedies.
It was a Dutch physician who provided the first detailed account of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very intense headache occurring and vanishing daily at fixed hours”.
The disorder were only officially recognised by international headache committees in 1988. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a major blood vessel which supplies blood to the brain. Prominent experts in diagnosing the condition note this.
In the late 1990s, scientists released the results of a study for which they had induced attacks in patients and monitored the episodes in a brain scanner. The data, published in a major journal, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they felt better.
In spite of such progress, diagnosis remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's symptoms began in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he had multiple surgeries before finally being correctly identified in recently, after a doctor researched his symptoms.
Neurologists say wait times in diagnosing and managing happen because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're tired and low, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He works by ruling out other common head pain disorders, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A thorough history is essential: on which side do signs appear? For how much time? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Specific characteristics such as redness, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to specialist clinics. But a lot of first arrive to A&E or are given inadequate therapies.
A charity trustee, 78, has suffered from the condition for the majority of her life, although she has been free from an attack since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars extracted because dental professionals misunderstood her symptoms. She believes dentists still need greater education. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was she who responded. I remember calling a support line during an attack in 2021; a reassuring volunteer talked them through oxygen therapy and medication until the attack eased.
Official guidance on treatment advise that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a anti-migraine drug delivered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic choices include a blood pressure medication, which apparently helps manage the bouts of some people.
But leading specialists argue the official guidelines need updating to reflect a more defined treatment process and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, timing is critical: “The length of the cycle dictates the approach.” Short cycles with occasional attacks are managed with acute therapy alone. More prolonged or more severe periods require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes combined with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an procedure into the side of the skull where the discomfort is that reduces nerve activity.
The national guidance need revising to reflect a